I miss this moment
I miss this moment,
I dont have to worry nothing,
No need to think about any deals,
I just want to be caress,
Everything is fun
Everything is fine,
Ma will always near,
Soothe you and hold you tight,
Lie down and enjoy the lullaby,
I miss this moment.
my classmatesMMmm...dunno where to start....2009 is another story. Our unit had arranged some kinda welcoming party for all science unit that existed in this institute. Being the very elder senior of science unit, we managed to have the whole heart united and we can get closer by arranging such function.got hypnotized!
She mumbled around,
Accused me for being a stalker,
I stammered-Ssoorry…
Stood and stared,
Nonsense, an enigma,
What had come over you?
Stamped and staid
This is kinda stark reality
To be frank and honest
“You are my starlight”
This is too naive, yet replied
“You are the snail”
A sparkling star awaits
Stay off, she yells
I stammered-Ssoorry
Somehow, she is still the Staggeringly Soul everlasting…
by =)hafizatan(= sobz
Neither Crush nor Crash,
when I just actually lie down,
the glow of the sun seems hard to find,
the moon still brighter and whiter,
Yet it is only just cold,
They yells, you had a crush to whom?
C`mon you are the one who are crashing,
Crack! I broke the glass again,
Am I a daydreamer?
I had a dreamt of Him,
Men is killing me and women just bubbling around,
Again and again,
it feels numb and pale overwhelmed,
Is this the circular or the triangular of life?
Someday, I will be somebody or some kinda nothing too…
written by =)hafizatan(=
Geez…
To tell you the truth is disaster,
dont think that you irreplaceable,
You got me twisted,
you wont see me cryin’,
coz I keep smilin’,
I will find another you,
easy for me though,
C’mon you are grown up,
trace the real me
enchain the pain surround me,
it doesnt make sense to me
now and then,
Coz I am a HYPOCRITE and beware of me.
by=)hafizatan(=
O’ Pain,
Am I your foe?
To have you around me is kinda freak,
To let you love me is above the peak,
Cho cho cho, you seems like a timed bomb,
Yet you still doesnt bust ever again,
Why dont you just crack it off?
By the time the moonlight fed up,
While the sun rised up,
O’ Pain,
The piercing of the sun is a cure
and I wont fall for you,
I know you hates me but please
let me be mine…
p/s : Dont worry, I feels so healthy by the moment I typed this post…
“Well if you wanted honesty thats all you had to say;
I never want to let you down or have you go;
It is better off this way…”
Those phrases are taken from MCR, song entitled I am Not Okay…I am typing this post after quite some time. I am not so busy with my life but I am actually filling up this life with something. I dont know whether it is beneficial or not. I would let God judge me. Since some human are seems like a freak and annoying I always conclude that they are not a pure judger. And I have just realized my other dark side, which is “I love to critics and I dont care”. That seems bad for me though.
For me, everyone have the right to be a critic, to critics peeps who are %(*)(**^) in their own perceptions. Well I really understand the fact that human is not perfect, but would you rather try someday to be perfect, even for just an hour? I guess it is hard for me though. So, I wont believe people who proclaims that he or she is better than me or anyone else. Because if I even heard a statement that I am rather weak than him or her, I would feels like tearing them into pieces. No one is perfect and please dont say that someone is so-angel-like nice and he is my hero/heroin in this life. Trust me, I wont believe you.
My life has always teach me something. I learn from observating, experiencing and demonstrating. I have come through a time where people are putting me out. They think I am still got some sickness with me. They wont trust me. I felt like an alien to them. So I would rather cry alone, pray to God, and waiting for the sun to cheer up my life at that particular time.
Cant you imagine how to put yourself in an environment where you act like an alien to them? Everything that you do seems like a freak in their eyes. I have gone of this sense in my life. Recalling back of events in my life, especially my college`s life, I have taste the sweet and the bitter of being a student. Even it is not really a U-life I am glad to be a student of IPSMB. I am one in a million, since I got the oppurtunity to be a teacher someday.
My pathway is not as easy as I thought. Maybe I am not a good boy or a good neighbour in my hostel as there were people who once shouted at me and grab me for a fight. It really did happens to me. I dont know what is really my fault. I keep asking myself, am I a blame in their life? I had also made a conclusion that I seems like a freak to them and they think they are a lot better than me. O I C. It is a fact that hurts the most. I will remember them until the end of my life. Sorry seems to be the hardest word. And it is getting worst for me to ask for forgiveness from them. But sometime I just let it be. I would rather ask for forgiveness even it is not my fault and I always do. There got no friends who really say sorry for what we have just quarrel over. No one ever. For me to fade off my ego and my pride, I would say please forgive me for what had happens. It is not my fault though.
“I am not crazy, I am just a little unwell”
=)hafizatan(=
Well, this is what I have been thinking lately, me and my bestfriend had established an English Cultural Club on June 2008 in our college IPSMB…But it seems like we can do nothing about it…
Maybe I was too confident to hold the position as the Vice-President until my effort on the club was just a damp garbage. I dont know. Or maybe the insitute cannot accept a kind of new changes in those place. I dont care anymore. My friend, Afif Aris is the president of the club. Afif and I had put our best efforts to keep the club going on and forward. We should make a change in our lovely college, dont we.
To me, I noticed that everyone is teasing the President of the club, maybe the way he behave is one of the reason they wont join the club. For me, I know who the real Afif a.k.a Bulat is. He is kind and generous. I have seen how he had stayed up for some nights just to make our paperworks going up to established the club. We had put our energy just to make sure the club is established.
Well, it seems like our job had done above the English Cultural Club. Maybe the solution is we should bury down the club. We cant do nothing about it. Everyone is so good in English until they wont join us anymore. I just say one of the potential decision is we should bury up. I have to discuss with Teacher Nor`Axah bt Aziz, our advisor( thanks a lot Teacher Azah!).
I would like to add another person here, she is so hardworking. She is Siti Khaznina Kamarudin from PPISMP Sem 3. She is the Secretary of ECC. Every secrets of the club is with her anyway. Hehe. I am just kidding Nina, Thank you for helping me and Bulat while we have works together for the club, you are also a good debater (I cant wait to get participated with the team next year)…
I guess I will make this matter serious if I got even 30 person who are interested in joining the club, I dont mind. This is my other option. If only I got 30 persons, that was enough. I will tell them the way we should do to increase our confident in speaking English language. Whatever it is, I will discuss with the Mr. President, he is a good one. Hardworking and diligent. Okay Bulat, if only you are reading this post anyway.Hehe.
Salam ECC from Mr. Vice President…
Salam day and night…
Today`s post is about a topic of recognizing the most important persons in our life. Guess what?. Erm, one of the most important person in our life is our Prophet Muhammad (Nabi Muhammad) s.a.w. I have never met him but I know he is the greatest person ever lived in this broad Earth. He is the greatest callipph (khaleefa). He is the true mujahid (pejuang kebenaran).
If we read through Al-Quran, we will recognize the truth that he brings, the features of his appearance and the story of himself. He had win many wars. His ability and determinance in bringing the truth is the greatest feature of himself, Prophet Muhammad. Well, we must be patient in meeting Prohet Muhammad. The Ressurection Day (kiamat) will coming sooner or later. We should just upgrades our inner strength, our faith to the Almighty ALLAH. Am I right?
Okay, then I will go through the other person here. He is Al-Mahdi. I dont really know about him, because I have no good sources to find the features and the ability of Al-Mahdi. He is the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damped.
Imam Al-Mahdi is the greatest Imam ever. I think he has the good looking face just like the person before him. Then I think he is so strong that he will beat people who are against him. I cant wait to know who is Al-Mahdi.
Imam Al-Mahdi will born in this Earth just before Nabi Isa is coming down on Earth. Nabi Isa is his assistant, and Al-Mahdi also acting as the assistant for Nabi Isa. I dont really know his real story. I just type this blog by using my prior knowledge. I am also still find the correct web or articles regarding Imam Al-Mahdi.
The link below is one of the sources for Al-Mahdi,
http://www.islamicweb.com/history/mahdi.htm
The term MAHDI is a title meaning The Guided One. Mahdi is a normal man who is going to follow the true Islam. He is also going to help the other muslimin and muslimat in this broad Earth. So, he is the great leader of mukminin. Am I true?. Please comment me, I would like to know your comment regarding my blog. Thank You anyway. Be patient guys and girls. Al-Mahdi will save us.
Salam day and night and always.
=)hafizatan(=
I am so afraid while I am typing this post, so I would like to express here who would us be afraid of…
ALLAH the ALMIGHTY is the answer for every worriness and every afraidness, well I dont know why I put the word “afraidness” there. Yeah because I am really afraid of ALLAH. I only have Him to help me through everything. I have seen some freak ghosts in some kind of forms, but I dont really afraid of them even for an inch. What for, we should be a stronger person. We should fight against the worriness.
How would we fight against syaitans?..Hmm, I guess I have some ideas on overcoming this issue. One of the tips is we should be calm. Remember, Allah will be there to help every mukminin in this earth. Every muslimin and muslimat should be proud to be Islam. Islam is the truth and the answer for every problems in this broad earth.
The devils(syaitans) are very slick(licik), they will never feels tired to brought people to be with them in hell(Nar). They would try to their very hard to get people with them all. They got a very big jealousy within themselves (because they are made from fire). Do anyone of you agreed with me. Please leave me a comment.
My mood is so strange. I am actually fighting over my passion every days of my life. I have tried my best but sometime I failed to do so. Well, I am just an ordinary person just like all of you. I have a lot to think. Sometime I feels bubbly, sometimes I feels high( through Islamic ways), sometimes I feels angry. Anger should be overcome with Angel.
How to be an Angel? Do you ever think about Angels(malaikat2). They are the true Angel of ALLAH, because they never stop working and worshipping the Almighty ALLAH. So sometime we should follow the Angel way, to be worshipped with the whole heart just for ALLAH. There is none of any God except ALLAH. We should also remember our prophet, Rasulullah s.a.w. Allahummasoli`ala sayidina MUHAMMAD. Let says this praise altogether with all of our heart.
Before I end this post I would like to ask for forgiveness above all my fault. I am just an ordinary human being. I am not an Angel. So I would do some sins anytime or anywhere without noticing it first. Please do forgive my sins. Salam day and night and always. Beware of devils(syaitannirrajim)….
=)hafizatan(=
